My internet is fucked. NO message I'm sending to people is getting through, instead I get that bullshit brown message saying that it wasn't delivered. And what's gay is that Mozilla is working fine.

My house is fucked. In the late arvo, I was playing H-O-R-S-E in the backyard with my dad and lil brother, and then the ball rebounded off the hoop and it hit one of the taps :S then it kinda exploded and now theres like this big leak =S. So most of the time we have to turn the main water off in our house ><" so now we have sessions each day for water use, and after that its no water again. And the shower was also annoying LOL, I had to put like 5 buckets around me so we didnt'waste the water, and use it later for flushing the toilet. Hahahaha. Well, what did I expect, the house is 40+ years old, and when we bought the house, the HOUSE itself was actually worth $0, we pretty much bought the land.

Nothing more to say....except mood swings are gay ):

-Justing

"In that moment...I felt like I knew where eternity, our hearts and our souls all lay. I felt like I could share the entire 13 years I've lived with her...And then...in the next moment...I was suddenly filled with an insufferable sadness. Akari's warmth and her soul...How could I take them in, and where could I bring them? I felt that way because I didn't have the answer to either of those questions. I clearly knew from that point on, we wouldn't be together forever. Our lives, too large...filled with an endless amount of time...spread out helplessly before us. But...the creeping anxiety that had taken hold of me...would soon gradually melt away. And all that remained was the feeling of Akari's soft lips."

Btw, this is after a really close guy and girl get split into different middle schools, and finally meet again after a year. It's pretty sad ):. I wake up on Saturday morning thinking yay! I have something to watch since I cbb to do work....But I've put up with 23 minutes of downright emo-ness, and if I keep watching, I think I"ll completely lose the incentive to do anything for the rest of the day ><" lol.

The way everything is told in 1st/3rd person (if that makes sense?) also makes it heaps more sad =/. Since it started, all the tracks been played were all very sad and solemn-like, not to mention instead of showing what happens, it just shows the guy taking the train to meet the girl, and lots of delays and stuff, and showing him going all emo cause she might have gone home, and it would be another while before they could meet again...and while you see this, he keeps thinking about the past...while the emo music plays...so its all...=S=S=S.

Grr, I hate the way this is making me shiver every minute or so. But I love the way its making me think about things. (:!

It makes me wonder though, the stuff that I've watched so far. Between the transition of primary school and high school, I never really became attatched to anyone, and in that period, was the time I just played games....so I didn't really suffer from losing friends. But now that we're in high school, after six long years with your closest friends, I really can't bare to think about leaving them all behind in year 12. Sure, you'll make new friends as your life progresses, but I think the friends you make in high school will be friends you'll remember for the rest of your life. Anyways, I have to go breakfast now bb~ -Justing

Seems as though, as soon as something finishes, another new thing takes its place almost immediately. Well, thats life I guess, and I know now thats to be expected. Shame though, too many of these "things" tend to lean towards being bad.

Yay! Hooray that this gay piece of shit is finished. In the end, I did pretty much my whole story on the last night, far out ==", stupid thing. Ah well, it's not completely worthless and shit, and I think I'll get a passing mark, so its all good.
Goodnight world.
-Justing

Well, Saturday passed without me dying of boredom. At least today was a bit more eventful, but I had maths tutoring...==". Worse yet, it's not the type you go to some tutoring place to to where you have friends, but it's at home with my grandpa...Whom I don't dislike or anything, but when it comes to teaching me maths, he gets a bit irritating. He keeps repeating the same thing loads of times all the time, and he kinda has bad....common ettiquette (how do you spell that thing?), which I won't explain here cause it seems kinda weird for me to type certain words on a blog xD.

=D I also bothered to upgrade my blog! Yay! It's not all black with errors like the content warning anymore, lol. But I suck at psing, and I hate doing html cause its so repetitive, so I just scabbed a skin=D haha.

Yay! DDR also reattained its fun. I shall go ddr some more after I finish typing this.

Story almost finished =D. Just the reflection statement to go...Well, it won't be hard, considering I've pretty much redone my story about three times. I'll just use 200 words to say how freaking hard I failed my 1000 word thing at first, perhaps? Haha.

Well, it's Monday again tomorrow! Yay, xD.

Well, I think I'll go now, bye bye.

-Justing.

Gahh. Weekends seem to be getting more and more boring, but I'm not complaning too much. It's better than about 5 months ago [and also the 14 years before that] where every weekend I got stuck at home, I just sat in front of the computer all day playing ragnarok maple story gunbound rakion or something like that. But instead of sitting in front of the computer all day now, I sit in front of computer and keep fazing out staring at the blank wall behind my laptop.

Haha, even DDR is losing its fun =/. At the moment, playing beginner and basic is like going for a walk with someone whos 150 years old who can barely move, so thats kinda boring. I don't seem to be able to improve my ranks on any difficults or experts either, and for the remaining experts I haven't passed yet, they're just WAAAYY too epic for me, I get owned under 1 minute, and after attempting 3 times or so, my legs already start to get sore ==".

So I'm pretty much left with nothing to do, but I still have basketball. For some reason though, I just don't seem to able to get any better with ball handling so I'm not forced into passing or driving everytime I'm marked ==" geez. Or maybe, its just that I give up after 5 minutes of epic failing, lol. Well, I really should practice more, because my team isn't exactly "pro", in fact *cough*lowest ranking in the lowest division* LOL. Well, I can't get blamed too much for it, I'm not one of the ones who can't play out of my team ^^.

Gahhh. Even though I have NOTHING to do and should be doing my english 1000 word thing because it's over 1000 words and it has no plot and its shit, I'm here. ==". For some reason I'm in a motivated to do nothing mood =/. Well, I have bball training in half an hour lols, maybe that will give me a break from feeling dead.

Zomg! The stuff in that Korean shop downstairs from CS on the non-main side is soooo cheap! Thats awesome =D. Thanks Yeli for telling me about that shop, xD. I think I'll go buy stuff from there every week before English starts haha.

Byebye google blogger thingy.
-justing
dead mood.

ZOMFG. I finished my cs homework at about 10pm, yet it's already past midnight and I'm still on. Grrr. I wonder why. *Cough*. *Sigh*.

Wah! I saw my first newborn baby in ages =D. It was so cute and ugly! xD. It kept crying very funny and it looked so cute when it started frowning haha. Well anyways, g2g bed now, I have to walk to cs and back tmrw and I'll be dead if i fall asleep while crossing the road. Literally dead.

Jya~

-justing

semi bad mood, lols.

Lol, today was made of "fail and aids." (quote from who other than ben). I dropped my mp4 on the ground in the morning while I was brushing my teeth, and the volume down button stopped working. In an attempt to fix it, I button mashed and pushed the volume to max. But the attempt failed, so now volume is stuck on max, so I have to use my laptop to listen to music instead of my mp4 ==". Science was fail, we had Jenkins and got some sheet that was boring, so I decided to just eavesdrop on other people's conversations instead. LOL. Maths was kinda hilarious. I got annoyed all lesson by *COUGH*COUGH* A-G-A-I-N. That was not a person, it was a matter. Woodwork was also dodgy, I used the lathe to err.. "lathe" my piece of work? And the wood chips stuck to my jumper and the way the the wood chips blasted all over the place at first, I had bits and pieces stuck to my clothes and poking me all day long ==". Second period of maths today: (I think) ben got kicked to the front of the room for talking or soemthing, but wasn't as epic as me :D. The other day I got kicked to a lonerized seat 10 minutes into a DOUBLE maths. TORTURE. I deserved to get 10 merits for that, but instead I got ONE for "bookwork." Lol. Volleyball was quite fun, except I jarred both my thumbs, which didn't really prove helpful for the basketball game I had later xD. At Zac's house, being the clumsy person I am I got two cuts down my thigh from this aloe vera plant thing. It started stinging during my bball game, which was also UBER EPOC MASSIVE BLACK HOLE DIVIDE BY ZERO PHAIL. Zomgoosh. LOST 47-15 HAHALOLOL. Its a shame, our team doesn't actually play that badly, cept that half our team can't shoot if their lives depended on it, so even though we make chances, all the shots miss and the other team seems to excel at taking rebounds, so like yeah. Haha I took shots twice and got one in =/, in other words I scored 2 out of the 15 ==". Afterwards my leg started stinging, and so did my jarred fingers. Haha. Shit, its already 11:19, I think I'll go sleep now. I pretty much redid my WHOLE 1000 word major work today, and also did my jap asso due tmrw today =/. Still haven't practiced though. Okay, I shall go sleep after a day of fail and aids. LMFAO. I swear, this dodgy language shall not come out of my fingers ever again.

goodnight all,
-justing
ily, my best friends (:

Lol epic. My service should count for service, physical, and skill. The reason I say that is because quite often, I actually break sweat at childcare, I have to run around, and I also have to be able to withstand getting kicked and elbowed in the ****, as well as it being grabbed occasionaly. ==". Also, you have to able to withstand like 5 children sitting on your lap at once. They're not as light as they might seem. Nevertheless I still enjoy it to some extent, LOL. My favourite children are Anmarie, Emma, and Brossney (No, I'm not a pedo) =D xD. I feel particularly unco today. I tripped over TWICE on my way home ==" (on humongous overgrown tree roots, though).

It's funny how young children are so naive. I mean, someone of the opposite gender my age wouldn't randomly grab *SADFIUS;LTKUJWLKGJJK*. Lol. Anyway. It also makes me envy how naive they are; when we were that age, nothing we do would really be dissed, since no one had the mind to be dirty or anything haha. But since year 5 or 6 or so, there seems to be a lot more thinking before everything you do.

I got 12/15 for the speech thing we did last term. =/. I think I lost a mark for
1. not tucking my shirt in
2. "being close to the board." which made me look like i was lazy. which made me look like i didn't look like i even wanted to do the speech.
Wtf is that =/.

AND I GOT 7/20 FOR A POETRY ANALYASIS. HOW OWNAGE IS THAT!? Near the end of period he said something along the lines of : "Oh, there's something here I won't read because it decided to answer its own question. (and I think he also said it got a 7/20). LOL. My english skills are so pro ==". Somehow, I got the exact average mark for english half yearly report though. Wow.

G2g dinner.
minna konbangwa.

-justing

Lol. Only 4 people turned up at bball training today. Zac, Jordan, the coach, and me. It was epic fail cause we had to run so much cause everyone else was missing. Damn them xD.

What would you do if the only living relative you had was your grandma, and you have been separated from her for 20 years, and 20 years later she was sent to your clinic or w/e (assuming your a doctor), and she had dementia and completely forgot who you were and went insane, etc? Then the next day you find out she remembers that you exist and also a very random promise, but then she doesn't know your her grandson and your listening to her say how your working very hard and stuff and all she can do is keep that one small promise.. ahh so sad. Lol. =/.

kyou wa ijyou da.
(thats all for today).

-justing

Gosh. The english competitions are so freaking hard, with like half the questions not having a definite answer, or at least to me anyway, since for some reason my vocab seems to be 10% of almost everyone I know ==" sometimes in english when we're reading something, I don't know a word and I ask keith or gary or mitchell or something and theyre like wtf you dont know? Lol, im so dumb.

I think the toilet is like a refugee for people who don't like a subject =D. Usually during double maths on tuesdays, I go toilet at the point where I get so bored or just get sick of doing maths I go toilet, and I usually at least see 1 or 2 people from my grade there =D, and sometimes people I don't know too. And also, today the sped who has "Power Rangers" on his year 12 joursey thing was using the hand dryer thingo and singing a song and doing this very weak thrusting motion. How sad. Learn to thrust ;). Bikram was there when I went toilet after I finished eng comp and got sick of sitting there trying to entertain myself =D lols.

If I get more than 35/50 (if it was 50 questions..or was it 60?) but anyways, that'll shock me. On that note, the geo comp scared the crap out of me. I'm pretty sure I guessed at least 30 questions, and i got 42. W00T!!!!!!!! ZOMGSH, 42/50 FOR SOMEONE SHIT AT GEO LIKE ME, WHO GOT 26/50 for half yearly =/ , totally epic fail. But that was scary :D.

Ahhhhhh, I asked samuel to print my story last night and when I read it today I realised its shit beyond repair or something like that. And I also realised that half of it didn't make sense cause I didn't describe the situation / stuff like that properly, and I'm already almost 200 words over the limit, so now I have to pretty much rewrite my whole thing with my old one as a base and also take out another character ==" damn the 1000 limit, it should be like, 4000 or something. So my intention of having 4 characters in my story, each telling different parts of the story in first person, is now reduced to 2, which kinda destroys its original unique-ness.

Last night I showed my parents the little kiddies at childcare drew of me =D. They were just like ZOMG, your so pretty. Just so you know, 3/4/5 year old insane little girls can't draw. ;). And holy shit, when they finished drawing, I was like, "Anmarie, did you miss something on the picture?" "OH YEAH. I'll draw your doodle now." ZOMG wtfbbq, she instantly got the message that she forgot to draw my penis? Children are getting dirtier and dirtier these days . :O.

Haha, very ownage video of robin crapping in the boys toilets o.o". I like, so totally got turned on at that :O. No offence to robin, I just found that vid really funny.

Gahh. School today was so boring, even more boring than child care was =/. But at least school isn't ALL bad...x).

Lol goddammit mohos such a fag. *Talks to me and ben*:
Where's your textbook?
Err, we don't have one.
Who was meant to bring it today?
(Me): Me.
Okay, come to your detention at lunch.
==" stupid bitch, and you said you told us to bring our textbooks on monday last friday. My ass, you forgetful overweight curry. Probably ate too much curry or something ==". Not that that is related to your forgetfulness nor w/e. And no offence to other curries, just my annoying maths teacaher specifically (:.

Lol. Some of the children at the Excelsior Avenue "Profit free" Childcare are simply uncontrollable. Sure, I got less people's hands shoved up my *** this time, but some child freaking grabbed onto my balls and like, yeah. Another kid also put his hands down my pants and tried to dak (however you spell that word) me and gave me a scratch, like zomg. And a lot of the keep poking you and tackling you and grabbing onto your legs to prevent you from getting anywhere. Thankfully this week was overall less dodgy than last week. But some of the are still really cute x). I feel so stupid acting like a kid at childcare ==" but its a chance to let loose a bit xD.

Zomg. My brother's attitude issues are getting to the point where my can-be-lenient parents are scolding daily for his dickheadish behaviour. He always asks for help, and within 5 seconds he starts yelling and screaming at you. On top of that, he calls me idiot, dickhead, and stuff, and occasionally tells me to shutup. The same with my parents. What sort of useless brother is that ==" gosh, it gets annoying, putting up with a little brother who talks as though he's 10 years older than your or something not to mention he gets aggro at ANYthing.
I better go calm down from putting up with bullshit ==". At least I must say I'm having it better than some people at the moment =/.

Yay! My story is almost done. 995 words, and I still have a bit to go. I think it'll be the right legnth once I do all the "fine tuning."

-justing

Ahhh weekends are so boring, even though its only 9:42am I'm already bored. At least I'm going cs in a bit and bball training later. But I'm watching Last Friends, and its seriously freaking me out. ITS SO GODDAMN FREAK GODDAMMIT, like this chick is living with her bf, but hes a freaking girl basher and he beats her up everyday and the music + the atmosphere the drama is creating is sending chills down my spine :S ahhhh so scary.

Ah. I'm in a bad mood =/ I'll go freak myself out some more until i g2g.

-justing.

Gahhhh. Today was gay. I'm so ashamed of myself I can go die in a hole. WE LOST IN BASKETBALL WHEN THE OTHER TEAM WAS SHORT BY 1 FREAKING PLAYER. Whats even frkn worse is that WE LOST IN THE LAST COUPLE MINUTES, AND ONLY BY 4 POINTS. *Sigh*. I may be ashamed for other reasons too ==" *sigh*.

Anyways, I haven't reaaaaally practiced piano properly this week and my lessons are in 2 days, and I have like 4 pages of A.mus songs to learn, so I'll go practice now.

Boooorinnnggg =/

And isn't it weird how parents, when you learn an instrument, tell you to try to make some progress if you say you want to quit, then once you've made enough progress, they tell you to get to grade 8 since you've already progressed so far, then afterwards they say its up to you to keep going and you can pull out anytime you want, and once you start a.mus, and you feel like pulling out, they say you might as well finish it now you've started it? =/ Talk about not sticking to your words, lol.

Anyways, g2g.

-justing

Yes, the title says it all. Today was just. WOAH. But I'm happy and also happy for some of those around me (:

Training today was weird. Me and zac wanted Josh to join the team, but when we got there for some reason *________* was acting pissy towards zac :S and like, I thought he was being slack to me too but I realised he was being sarcastic-ally slack to everyone. *Phew* Well, anyways that guy already had something against zac, so ehh =/ I dunno. AND FAR OUT BASKETBALLS ARE SO FRKN SOLID. Why can't they be a bit more like soccer balls ==". In year 6 once I got a soccer ball booted into my face really hard and I didn't even get a bruise, bleeding nose, lip or anything, just that it hurt for like 5 minutes. But when I accidentally got a basketball pegged at my face, my lip was fully bleeding. And now its sore. ==".

Ahhhh. Fucking vanloon that droning old bastard. WE ALREADY HAVE THE 1000 WORD MAJOR WORK, why must you shove unto us some bullshit 600-800 word poetry essay, that DOESNT FUCKING MAKE SENSE? ><".

Whoops. Drama is so distracting :S. I completely forgot to practice piano for a mini-concert I have to attend tomorrow, which was optional as my teacher said, but my parents said I had to take the experience ): I already did it last year dammit !!! And 2 people came up to me and asked where I got the piece cause it was contemporary and I like, apparently played it well :D yay for me ! Ah well, there's always tomorrow, since it isn't till 2:30.

Well, I think I'll go to bed now, or try to start on my english essay in 2 days which I haven't started. vanloon sucks balls =="

-justing